His need

I looked into watery eyes
Eyes of my father
My brother
My sister,
My mother looking into the wall
Her shaky voice,
At discord with her words
"Go and make it",
Her success farewell.
There I was
A young man who dreamed
Of a house in the 'burbs
Where a carpet of Jacaranda blooms
Would welcome October,
Now I was a young man  
Burdened
By his fears
By his guilt
By his need
"To make it."

My feet grudgingly stepped
Through the door,
My tongue remained behind
Tasting mama's cooking
Samp,
Rang out its buttery call
To a successful rainy season
My toes inched forward
Journey oblivious
Beckoned,
As the final score in street soccer
There would be no tomorrow
Just today's steps
I was convinced I had 
"To make it."