This deadening compression
Brings to life
All I thought had been given to the past
That I’d left to another life
But alas
Round the next corner it looms
Behind the next corner it glows
Above me it hovers
Within me
That is it
A dedicated life
Of self-imprisoned
Where I enabled others to be my jail keepers
I have empowered them with my emotions
Over happiness and rage they reign
Each being whipped into a frenzy
Only of their choosing
Is this respect they have
After all I have toiled
Although for me
It has benefitted them
Yet they see it not
Only the drying of blood
From my last letting
And now they want more
To see it glisten
Against the whites of my ambition
That once were pure
Of self-fulfillment and betterment
But are now tainted with your detriment
You make me regret a life
Mine
Given by the almighty
To do with as I please by his laws
Imprisoned by yours
A jail sentence for no crime of mine
Oh! God!
How I wish I were Lucifer
Your archrival
For at this moment he has ownership of me
My rage and anger
Pawns used to accumulate sins
In mind, body and soul
I ask for a stringless life
Not just of me
Doing for another
Being a stupid donkey
Plodding forever on
After the decaying carrot
That has wilted under the heat of hardship and hatred
But I still plod on
Hoping for a better future?
Or just scared of leaving the well-worn path
Walking that I only know
Told by others
To lead to the city of God
But what proof have I?
For I see them! Returning?
Souls tattered
Is this as I am doing
Each step a rip in my soul
It boils
That seethe
Let their throats fall in y grasp
Let the beating of the pulse
Fall against my hand
Pleading for forgiveness
As my grip increases
The pleading gets fainter
That sound that hurts me
I shall stop it
Bring it to an end
That scent that assaults my nostrils
Is the true you
That was hidden beneath the façade you hold your soul in
Now it brings to life the flies
Them that buzz, hiver and mate
Above and within
Let me inhale
A deep breath
Coat my lungs
Oh! Yes! Ecstacy
Stings my eyes
Tears brim
Magnifying it
Can it be possible
Is there any end
This is the joy
True pleasure of beings
That I feel
As they felt against me
It is self-reciprocal
Thus none shall go one
Is our destiny
For you have killed I
As I have killed you